Alvin n Eileen

2009-01-18T23:01:00.001+08:00

Uber busy! After work, i rushed down to Marina Square, Riz Carlton for my sis's 20th bdae celebration. After the dinner at Waraku, I went to Alvin's grandpa's wake. Left ard 1.30am, where he drove me back. He came up my house, and he is totally immerized with his potong ice cream la.

After my house, he went back to the wake.I woke up at 9.30 today, to go for Gong Gong's funeral. He left at 2am. I was tearing. When they send him in, i was crying like tap water can. Gong gong, i miss you... Haiz...

While I have decided to wait for Alvin, I have also decided to let him be with the person he likes, because, loving a person u do not need to own him, but if he is happy with the person he likes, you will feel loved too. So, I will wait, while i continue my love for him...

I dont care if you have another girl, or if you love someone else. I know what I want, and what i m doing can le. You cant stop me from loving you, missing you, or wait for you.

2009-01-15T23:28:00.003+08:00

I went down to Gong Gong's wake today, after a very tiring and difficult day at work. Rushed down with cab, coz very late le, and i wanted to see him, his family members and gong gong soon. Saw gong gong, he seems so peaceful. Which is good. His relatives, cousins, all smiled when they saw me, since it is not the first time i saw them.

Po Po smiled when she saw me. She is so happy to see me. But she said something to me, which I can feel her pain " Yi Lin, gong gong mei you le (gong gong no more le)." I told her, po po dun be sad ok. Po Po Says" nevermind, gong gong old le". When she say this sentance, my eyes went teary.

I will go down tomorrow, and on sunday, to walk his last journey with him, and to give po po morale support.

Alvin is sad, i can feel. We sorted our things out. Let fate n destiny decides bahx. No point determining anything now. I can continue my love for him, wait for him. He agreed with me, that no one, other den me, understand him the most.

I am glad, we are still good friends. As long as he is happy, though I might not be, but i m contented. I just want him to be happy, because I love him.

He laughed, when i told him dat i told Wenya, " Ya, should not fan him. He dont like people to fan him, but he likes to di siao people". Alvin is such a cute darling at times. I am contented, to have him before, and to have him as my good friend now.

Will visit gong gong again tml. Hopefully my issue today, can settle without giving other people trouble.

2009-01-15T07:46:00.003+08:00

I cant slp well last night. Thinking of gong gong, the number of times which I have seen him in the past 3 years 6 months. His smiley face...

I am worried for Alvin. I remember he told me before, in his heart, Allen rank number 1, his mum second, his grandparents 3rd, I am the fourth, followed by him dad the 5th.

His grandparents had brought him up, when the family left Pasir Ris, bringing the two brothers to school. When people bully Alvin in school, Gong Gong will scold the person, and warn him from doing it again. Alvin, in short, known as Ah Vin, gong gong will pronounce as Ah Bin. Cute lor!

I am worry for alvin, becoz he loves his grandfather so much. I can feel he is very sad. But there is nothing I can do, if he dont tell me, or refuse my care n concern. Haiz...

Gong gong leave le...

2009-01-14T21:06:00.005+08:00

Gong gong, rest in peace. I m very glad to have met you, the best guy I ever met. Though you might be stubborn at times, but i can see, you treat po po and everyone very well.

Gong gong, i believe you already know, I know you will leave today. I m sorry i cant visit you on monday n tuesday this week, though i have made up my mind to see you after work, but you grandsons do not wan me to interfere in the business.

Gong gong, though I cant see you for the last time, I know you are happy, to leave now. The only person, you cant let go de, is po po. I know you want to see me and alvin get married. Gong gong, I know you are very happy I enrolled in Uni le. Not to worry, I will try to persuade Alvin to study de.

Thank you, for treating me like your grand daughter-in-law, seeing you so happy whenever i see you, I feel, it is a blessing to know you.

Gong gong, Rest in Peace. Please bless po po to jia you, live on her life bravely. Please dont let her cry every night. Gong gong, having cancer, is very pain in your body. Leaving now, gives you better peace, lesser pain, i can understand absolutely.

Gong gong, I miss you alot. And, like Alvin, I love you too, because i treat you like my gong gong too. :)

If you have anything to tell the rest, and if you cant tell them, do come into my dream, I will convey for you. Hope to dream of you soon.

2009-01-14T20:40:00.002+08:00

Loving a person, does not mean I must have him as mine. As long as he is happy, have a happy life, I think, i should feel happy for him.

It doesnt matter how long I had him, it is about we have a very special relationship before. If the past was love and special, if we ever have a future, it will be a bonus to me.

Maybe, I have learnt, to just keep the love to him, to myself. I hope, he will lead a happy and less stressful life.

2009-01-13T22:56:00.002+08:00

Below, is a song, which i have used in my other blog, before i started this blog. This song, represent my feelings to him now, it shall always be my favourite song...

I am doing this post, in memory of our love, since 26-07-2005...

Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you, yes I do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until the end of time

From the day I met you I knew we'd be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you and I wanna have your kids
Thinking never compared to the feeling of your kisses

I can say I'm truly happy to this day
You made think I better live my life everyday
There's never been a doubt in my mind
That I regret ever having you by my side

But if the day comes that I have to let you go
I think there's somthin' I should probably let you know
That I enjoyed everyday that I spend with you
And I will miss you but I'm happy that I had you at all

Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced(2X)

I love you ohh yes I doI'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until the end of time

1st Lady - Baby I Love You lyrics

2009-01-13T22:48:00.003+08:00

Living in the World, of this blog...

I remember this song, which he sang to me... I always cry in this arms, whenever he sing this song, because, I dont want to part with him.

Today, I listen again, Tears came down, together with the heartache... I would love to hug him again, holding his hands, and listen to him sing to me again.... But.... everything.....

ARTIST: Lin Jun Jie, JJ Lin (林俊傑) ALBUM: Music Voyager (樂行者)Songwriter: 張思爾; Composer: JJ LinTranslator: bloodredrosez, keep this credit if taking for use or reposting. This is the only translation of this song out there like this, and possibly the only translation at all.

一九四三　世界大戰　yi jiu si san　shi jie da zhanIn the year 1943, the world war—
阿嬤年輕的時候a ma nian qing de shi hou
When grandmother was young

爺爺愛他那麼多　他們感情很深
ye ye ai ta na me duo　ta men gan qing hen shen
Grandfather loved her so much, their feelings were very deep

但是爺爺　身負重任　
dan shi ye ye　shen fu zhong ren　
But grandfather bore a heavy responsibility

就在離鄉的那夜
jiu zai li xiang de na ye
And on the night before his departure

給了阿嬤一個吻　輕聲說道
gei le a ma yi ge wen　qing shen shuo dao
Gave grandmother a kiss, softly saying

*我要離去　別再哭泣　不要傷心　請你相信我wo yao li qu　bie zai ku li　bu yao shang xin　qing ni xiang xin wo
I must go, do not weep, do not grieve, please trust me

要等待　我的愛　陪你永不離開
yao deng dai　wo de ai　pei ni yong bu li kai
You must wait; my love is with you, it will never leave

因為會有那麼一天　
yin wei hui you na me yi tian
because that day will come when

我們牽著手在草原聽
wo men qian zhe shou zai cao yuan ting
we will hold hands and in the grasslands hear

鳥兒歌唱的聲音　聽我說聲　我愛你niao er ge chang de sheng yin　ting wo shuo shen　wo ai ni
The sound of little birds singing and my voice saying I love you
夕陽西下　鳥兒回家　
xi yang xi xia　niao er hui jia　
The sun set in the west, the little birds return home

阿嬤躺在病床上a ma zai bing chuang shang
Grandmother lies on her sickbed

呼吸有一點散漫　眼神卻很溫柔
hu xi you yi dian san man　yan shen que hen wen rou
She breathes a little unrhythmically, but her expression is still tender
看著爺爺　濕透的眼　握著他粗糙的手kan zhe ye ye　shi tou de yan　wo zhe ta cu cao di shou
She looks at grandfather, moisture filling her eyes, grasping his rough hand

阿嬤淚水開始流　輕聲說道
a ma lei shui kai shi liu　qing shen shuo dao
Grandmother’s tears begin to flow, softly saying

*Repeat chorus twice
我愛你wo ai niI love you

2009-01-08T20:22:00.001+08:00

It is a blessing to be with the person you love...

2009-01-08T00:08:00.002+08:00

Alvin, do you remember the day you put on the ring on my fourth finger, and you told me you hope I can marry you? Although then I do not want to promise you anything then, in my heart, I have already set you, as my Hubby.

Hearing from wenya that if I have agreed that proposal...me n you would not hav break up. In your heart, you also know I have regard you as my fiance le, if what Wenya said is true, then you should not have said the break up, because you have committments!

I will wait for u, to ask me the question formally.

Muackx.

2009-01-04T20:23:00.002+08:00

I meet him today. Thank you, for letting me tell u everything, which I want to tell you.

No matter what you say, I belief, our relationship is a unique one. Let us see, after September 2009, if we will still be together.

2008-12-26T21:13:00.001+08:00

26th Dec, supposedly to be our 3 yr n 5 mth. I hate such feeling, becoz I m starting to hate myself. Becoz of my clumsy things, it caused our breakup.

I have moved on to http://little-place-of-eileen.blogspot.com/

2008-12-25T15:02:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas to all. The first time in this 4 yrs, I have to spend this lonely festive season at home. How great!

Yesterday after work, he came my house to fetch me to Tiong Bahru for dinner and movie "YesMan".

We ate Burger King. Just as I have expected, he has absolute craving for the Burger King. We went to Henderson Carpark to take a rest before our Movie starts at 12 midnight. We had a goody great time.

Alvin, I apologise for the spill in the water in the car. But, it was unintentional. If you recall properly, yes, you did told me to hold on to the bottle. But, I put it on the floor since I got to put on my seat belt. Your great driving skill did a sharp turn, plus my carelessness, which resulted the spill in the water.

Please recap the details. Apology have been said to you. Though we are friends now, remember the course we went to? The lecturer said, Forgive those who should be forgived, and be responsible.

It was my mistake, but it was partly yours too. If you think it is entirely my fault, so be it.

Thank you for spending the Christmas Eve with me. I will remember this day forever.

16 days since the break up... You make me feel scared of relationships le. I am starting to get afraid and dislike guys. When I used to say, "I love you" so easily, even if you want me to said it to you now, I will hestiate, because the impact in this long 16 days had been utterly great, and unforgettable.

Taking one step at a time...

2008-12-21T23:47:00.002+08:00

Something dat I learn from my course today...

Treasure what you should treasure, forgive what you should forgive.

"Discipline when you are young, and you will be freed when you are older." This means that I should have discipline in saving for the rainy days. When I am older, I will have lesser needs to work to make my ends meet. True huh!

2008-12-21T23:26:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, my ex boss, Don's 31st birthday celebration in our ex company. Damn fun ok! I bet Clara regrets deeply not coming cause she forgot abt it.

The whole thing started at 6.30pm, at the poolside, bbq session. Alot of food, we saw alot of ex colleagues. Pple from the club present was Lthena, Ping, Rose, Me, Justin, CY...

Well, eat and talk over some wine, and we took some pictures after the cake cutting ceremony. Cool, because we managed to trick Don and throw him into the water! Woohoo! I got the pictures and videos, everyone is dying to get their hands on it, coz it is very hildarious.

Today, after slping at the unearthly hour of 3am to 7am, I head down to his house for our course. As his grandfather is in hospital now, we head down to Changi Hospital to see him. As usual, his grandparents were asking me and telling me if I got continue my studies, wanting me to tell him to go for his Uni after his NS.

After dat, we went for the course from 12 noon till 6pm.

Dont ask me what is our relationship like now. Because I really duno. One step at a time bah. We shall see how we can really progress.

Now, its world war 3 in my hse. Damn frustrating, to come home and get irritated by these pple. Just shut up! Noisy!

They shld just go for a 3 months holiday sia, and give us some peace.

2008-12-18T22:56:00.002+08:00

Moved to my little secret place for now, because he reads this blog. I just want some peace as I dun feel secured anymore.

Disappearing for now....

2008-12-14T21:17:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, 13th December, after work at Kovan, i head down to amk to meet him, go his hse, den we went down to Marina Bay, Marina Barrage together, to meet WH and Ken.

We dint patch. But instead, the break was spoken face to face. It slap me hard and furious. I was completely lost.

I returned the keys to him. But i found the other set though. After Marina Barrage, we hard lunch plus dinner at Carl's Jr at Marina Bay. Around 8 plus, the guys wanted to play Mahjong at Ken's hse. So he sent me to the MRT station. We had a long talk, for 1 hr 30 mins, just weeping and telling about the journey we walked down together. Long indeed, but there is no way I can make him change his mind about it.

Thank huh, 7 stabs u gave me. U promised me to take Singapore Flyer tgt, go Japan tgt, watch Song of the Sea tgt. I promised the artwork, and the movie Journey to the Centre of the Earth. I hope someday, we can fulfill all these together.

Do you remember this sms u sent to me? ' A long journey indeed... A longer journey ahead... Together. :)'

He is having dinner with his family now. But dumb dumb him, return the keys to his mum, and his mum is very smart to found out we break le. So he is facing some family questioning now.

I told my sis not to mention about my bf ytd, cause we quarrel. I dint want them to think too much. Just as I have expected, she told my parents. When I came back from Kaiyan's place today, my dad and mum was harping on how nice my bf was, doting me, giving way to me, a very hard to get person.

How I wish to tell them, the break up is not I initiated de. I love him so much. But, sometimes, things cannot be forced. To my parents now, it is my fault, that caused everything.

Dear God, please help me. Please answer my prayers and give me the strength. Please...

2008-12-11T21:45:00.002+08:00

Condolences to Lloyd's family. For those who have read tonight's Wan Bao, will probably have seen the headlines of a young man who passed away in a motor accident.

Thank you Lloyd, for teaching us on how a project shld be done, for our IB project, RM project when we are in poly. :)

Take care.

Break Up...

2008-12-10T21:37:00.003+08:00

After 3 years 4 mths and 15 days, we break up le. I will miss him alot. But i promised not to call him, or meet him, until he is ready again. I duno, I dun feel secured.

I will learn to grow up. This msn nick "*ELiN*=RaPpigiE=* Pigotong says:" will be changed from today onwards. I will work hard, save money, work hard, slim down, make myself pretty. Make him regret, or maybe make him remember for life.

I will remember this man for life. Who make me love him so much, smile, laugh, sad, angry, unhappy...

Whether we will have the chance to be together again, or eventually I will hate you for what happen now eventually, I am glad and will not regret to have know you.

This blog states our love story, until I get the final answer from him. If this is the final answer, I will leave this blog, and will never undate again. I will give my friends the new blog add again. :)

Eileen comes back again.

Separation

2008-12-09T20:56:00.002+08:00

Living in self denial. mayb... I miss him. But, today morning, when i picked up my hp, the first sms was from him. We have agreed to be separated for a while. Sometimes, or maybe, usually, when couples separate, they might not be together le.

:(

I duno. My whole mind is full of him. Tears threatened to drop down. did an 1hour of OT today. Make lots of mistakes today. That place is horrible. I m counting down to 6.5 days...

I wan his blanket. I dun care, going to get from his hse soon.

2008-12-08T20:01:00.002+08:00

Went to Casey Lim's wedding lunch yesterday at expo. My first time to a wedding lunch, and the first time i pack an ang bao for people. Woohoo! Exciting. The food is ok, but the waiters keep rushing us. The whole 10 course lunch, was finished in 1 hour 50 mins, freaking fast.

The waiter, when serving us with the fish, told us, "please help yourself, enjoy ur meal slowly". Then I whispered in a very loud voice to my CSM; " Tell me how to eat slowly, when they always come to rush us within 5 mins when we dig in to the new dish"

My boss was laughing, " that is a good one Eileen!" Lol, true what!

Mummy and daddy went Batam yesterday. I went Tampines to buy my Famous Amos. Meet my bf at 8.30pm at his place, den we head down to AMK Hub to have Ichiban sushi. I ate a bit only, drank most of the Japanese Green Tea. Nice woah! Baby and I enjoy this season's special, the puffer fish. BF treated me to this meal.

Cute bf came over my place at night to zzz with me. :) Baby and I watched "It all started with a kiss" from 11pm till 2am. Yippee! Can see this cute bf enjoyed himself.

Woke up at a goody good time of 11am this morning, make breakfast for him, and we continue with the show "It all started with a kiss", till 1.15am, where I hurrily ran down to bathe and head down his hse, coz his bro's gf coming his place to pass his sth.

He drives us down to Novena, where we had a very delicious lunch at Pasta de Waraku, this time I treat, total damage for today with the cab in the morning to his place, is $50. We saw Yao Yu Shu, a mediacorp artiste there. She is very very pretty and gentle. We had Hereshy's Sundae Pie, delicious.

I am still thinking if i shld get the hair curler from Novena... $250 woah. Expensive, but, seems like really good. The person tried on my hair, he was so excited to see me. Probably due to my long long hair bahx. In ten seconds, he managed to make a part of my hair into bouncy curls. But of course, my hair got dry after dat. :(

Going to Kovan tomorrow. God bless man, hopefully everything will go smoothly tml. No stupid and demanding customers.

2008-12-06T22:18:00.002+08:00

Somehow, i just feel that we are drifting apart. Duno, maybe it is my own emotional factors.

Went downt to Bugis with Mummy to settle my Uni things. Baby's first time out with my mum, n he was late for 15 mins. Good job huh! Nevermind, all are settled, and I am gonna start school in May 2009. Hopefully the economy turns better by then, so that I can find a less taxing job and concentrate on my studies.

This mth is gonna be a busy busy month, I m posted to do relief at Kovan side for the next 9 days, from 8th onwards. Good and bad. Good is that start work early, end work early, plus more $$. Bad coz not my own base, so feel not like home. :(

20th is my ex boss's bdae at the club, so it will be time for me to head there again, after a lapse of 4 months since my resignation.

21st is self pampering time, facial at 3.30pm.

23rd after work I got my branch's Christmas Party. Got to get a present for this party, after that got to rush down to meet my dearest girlfrieds, coz they too are having some party, plus clubbing sessions.

25th is the fun Christmas day.

31st is New Year eve. Havent decided where to count down. May be I should ask baby how he wants to have it....

He is having Mahjong now. Probably he will be staying over at my place tomorrow's night. Missing this sweetheart of mine.

2008-12-02T00:05:00.002+08:00

Missing him... Soooo tired at work today! Shall not elborate on it. Tomorrow will be a better day.

He just smses me at 10.50pm " Baby... New fever n asthma, on the way to a Med Centre =x"

Poor boy... Anyway, thinking of it... it might be good if he got mc tomorrow... coz... I got half day off tomorrow. Lalala!

Yeah! Just received his sms, 'tml mc ' I m so delighted! Not because I m happy he is sick, but I can take care of him.

Took photos of my birthday presents le... Will upload it when I m free bahx!

2008-11-30T21:36:00.015+08:00

Happy Birthday to me myself, on 26th November. Meet BF after he booked out from his guard duty. We went to AMK Hub to watch Madagascar 2, and went to have New York New York after the movie...

His fish n chips...

See how serious he is treating his food!

Then he starts to attempt murder to the already cannot-make-it fish...

There he is, enjoying the results of the 'murder'!

My delicious steak! The staff has great service. As i dint know their standard of the meat, so they advised me to take 30% cooked. When i realised the food is not my type, they changed the whole set and cooked it to 50% raw, exactly to my liking. Thanks!

Yummy :)

After packing our bags, we dragged our heavy luggages to the Swensens at Bishan for dessert before heading to Golden Mile Complex!

My complimentary birthday firehouse!

Making a wish, after he sang the birthday song to me.

His banana split!

Guess what he is doing?

Hey presto! Look at the outcome of his effort! A stem of the cherry being tied to a knot! Woohoo!

Indulging in his ice- cream!

Obviously, two of them are his, and two of them are mine. Because I got short tongue, so two failed attempts vs his two successful attempts!

Thanks darling... for giving me a special birthday celebration. Muackes! Although the Genting trip wasnt just simple fun filled, at least we spoke our hearts out. Crying and weeping will not be brought back to Singapore. I will treasure our time together, as much as I can. Whether we will continue our relationship for how long, I just want to let you know, I love you! Thank you!

2008-11-30T21:17:00.007+08:00

26th November, we board our coach from Golden Mile Complex to Genting. Set off at 10.30pm, and we reached Genting at the wee hours of 5am.

The coach went soooo fast, dat i almost puke, probably due to the double decker bus bahx.

When we reached Genting, it was freezing cold. Baby n I were chattering our teeths, shivering, it was sooo misty, and at a low temperature of merely 14 degree!

Let the pictures do the talking!

Our coach to Genting!

Bleah! I was trying to do take his photos, then he wanted to take mine, to show how horrible i looked swating there.

Our coach!

We went to the theme park once it opened. We deposited our luaggage into the hotel lobby, den off to play!

Haha, bf n i tried to imitate the weird look of this dragon, Geno

My turn!

2008-11-30T20:42:00.014+08:00

Theme Park!

Our little room, at Level 2 of Tower 2

Our messy things :p

It is not dat cold, due to the rain throughout the day...

My Handsome BF

Starbucks, before we head to Casino

Sweet :)

On our way home, on the coach

Last glance of the theme park...

Happy 21st Birthday to Myself!

2008-11-26T18:08:00.002+08:00

Woohoo! I am finally 21 years old! Yeapy! Received a Guess Watch from my branch pple. Thanks peeps!

My 21st birthday started out by trimming my eyebrow, slack at home, and now I am all set ready for a little trip of ours.

Just had lunch with bf after watch Escape to Africa at AMK Hub, lunched at New York New York... Steak! My fave...

Happy birthday to Suiping also... my secondary school friend, who shares the same birth date as me. Like what she says, we will follow this tradition, till we lost touch with each other. :)

I hope to enjoy myself in the next few days! Relax relax relax...

Tata, dun miss me!

2008-11-24T21:41:00.002+08:00

Unpredictable life... I dint tell him about my worries or unhappiness at all... Just want him to be a happy bf of mine :) He made my life happy, for dat 11 mins of tele conversation we had today.

My toopid mum, asked me to wash, hang and fold my own clothes from today onwards, just becoz of my dumb dumb sis. Watever! I dun give a fuck about it. Just dun come and blame me about the high electricity bills in time to come.

I told my sis to give me back my laundry things, she was like giving attitude. Hello, i was nice becoz u yourself volunteer to do ur own laundry things, and ur attitude affected my lifestyle. Mummy says she does this is due to you, who likes to draw a line in things. So, dun come and tell me y i wan to draw lines between such things, because, you taught me.

Dont forget, i m a nice person if u dont step on me. Try to make a mess in my life, you have to taste ur own medicine. Take it or leave it. Just dun force me to even draw a line in our bedroom.

My study table, was given to u, though u failed ur JC, for u to carry on in ur poly education. I m given a pathetic table outside the living room, u n bro come to use the table as computer table. Mummy still dare to say its my table, and i have to keep it clean. If it is my table, den dont put ur things on MY table, or even use MY table for anything.

Dont say I dont contribute to the family. If i really wan to pick up a fuss over little things like u do, i will definately be a better person than you to make the family in great mess.

When i say sth I mean it! Dont make me pissed off!

A Memorable BBQ Celebration

2008-11-23T09:22:00.002+08:00

Thanks to all who took the effort and time to come down for the bbq session. I must clarify, it was until yesterday's evening, then I know my cousins and relatives are coming.

Neverthless, despite the heavy downpour from 5pm to 7pm, the whole bbq session went well. Apology to those friends, whom I cannot entertain you well enough.

I am very happy, to see friends whom I seldom can meet up, like those from safyc, and my batchmates as well as my girlfriends...

I was damn shocked to see bryan, pamela's bf to come. And Jie yong... Shocked!

Thanks for the nice nice presents:

- Green coach wristlet --> from the 8 to 10 years of friendship and still counting secondary school friends and their bfs.
- Cute coach wristlet --> from my pretty little best friend from poly, Adelaide
- Nice Hello Kitty bag --> Tian Cai, Pamela, Bryan, Kendrick and WH
- Super cute Hello Kitty water bottle, calculator and the very nice cake from hyatt hotel --> My beloved Boyfriend, Alvin
- Shopping vouchers --> Ping, Clara, Rose, Liyan
- Pretty Dress Watch --> Don and Lthena
- Elegant bracelet --> Cheeyang and Liling
- Outstanding Party Watch --> Xiaoting
- Fluffy bag accessory --> Kim
- My favourite chocolate brand, Chocz --> Mandy and Weihong
- Perfume --> My cousins
- Puma running set --> My bf's family

A memorable evening for the bbq session. Those who turned up and those who sent me the well wishes, thank you so much!

I cant wait for next month 20th, where I can see my ex colleagues again! My happiness and smiles always stay longer when I am with them. :) Cheers! What shall I get from my ex boss???? think think think think....

Alvin, thank you. The cake is very well received by everyone. And except for those who attended your birthday, everyone was entertained by the special candle, dat lights like fire sparkles. My secondary school friends are very happy to have eaten the cake, becoz it was so nice. Thanks darling.

2008-11-20T23:14:00.002+08:00

1 more day, 1 more day to the 22nd of Nov! Yippe! Cant wait to gossip with my ex colleagues. :) Happiness!

And another 5 more days, off to the cold cold place with my darling...

Hopefully my cough will be better by then... I am so sick these few days. Fever, cough, headache, flu.... haiz... Now left cough and sore throat.

Bf was sick too... Baby u must recover soon...

2008-11-16T22:32:00.003+08:00

Missing him already, though we parted just 45 mins ago... Had BK for lunch, den head down to CBTS. Raining, so i dint play any rides, plus its red day...

I m losing my voice, feeling heaty, cough, flu and fever! Haiz! Shall see doctor tml before work, see what the doctor says...

Double O

2008-11-16T11:26:00.002+08:00

Carnival By The Straits event is ongoing on Saturday and Sunday. Weewee! One of the events which i do not need to do, yet can play! Yeah! Especially I was invited by pple to go down to enjoy, lalala...

Clubbing is soooo fun, if u have the right kind of friends. Tian Cai bdae on the 18 Nov, so we did a celebration for him yesterday at Double O, after going to a vegetarian restaurant for dinner which costed us $23/pax! Cover charge to Dlb O was $15, free for guys. Nvm on dat, since gers always get free entrance on ladies night, seldom was it the other way round.

It was Tian Cai's virgin trip to club, and my bf's first time to Singapore's club. We went in at 9pm, and dance, groove and drink till 4am... Fun woah! Just dat the dance floor is damn irritating, pple elbowing their way in and out, disturbing our dance moves. :( Nevertheless, the whole thing went fun. Tian Cai and Pamela left at 12 midnight, so left the two couples only.

Had prata at prata house, upper thomson road, before we hit the sack at 6.45am. Super tired. Shall be back to blog after i come back from the CBTS!

2008-11-14T22:39:00.000+08:00

Sweety send me to work today! Yeah! Loves him!

Meet him after work today. With Pamela ken also.. The four of dem give me a prezzie, and baby also gave me another prezzie too!

Happy...

2008-11-12T16:13:00.003+08:00

Half day work today, coz i really need a good rest! My stupid siblings, woke me up so early. Its freaking raining now, but i m heading to facial before i come back to study for my test, because i m going to CBTS this weekend!

Hani's last day, before she go on her freaking long off day, 1 month! I miss him la, he got his camp things today. Argh!

Just back from my facial today! Yippee, pretty pretty! Just received his call, have some nice sweet talk. Smiles :)

I hope to accomplish the following in our little trip:
- Sky-diving
- Roller Coasters
- Kbox
- Gambling
- Eat eat eat --> All the yummylicious foodies
- Swimming
- Clubbing and getting dead drunk
- Drink starbucks (cold cold chocolate flapp)
- Some shopping
- Spending alot of quality time with him

Oh yes, my bf is now addicted to clubbing, ever since his trip from thailand. Hopefully, I will be blessed with good health, and mummy to give me the permission to go club this saturday at double O with our friends.

Youngsters mah! Quit telling me the bad parts about clubbing alright... It is not as bad as last time, when the clubs are filthy smokey and unhealthy. My current working hours encourages me more late nights den ever! Woohoo!

2008-11-11T21:48:00.002+08:00

Happy happy! It is thrilling to work 7 hours, and got paid for 9 hours pay. Yippee!

But but but, i m a nice gf, to meet my bf, at Jurong, for a pathetic 30 mins, becoz he has a movie session with one of our female junior. Haiyo! He is good, to help me do homework for the bbq i will be having...

I cant wait for our little trip!

A little note to my bf...

Alvin, making a relationship works require love and passion. You are right in this two parts. But, communication and understanding are also the requirements. You said that you try to be childish in front of me, for what? I prefer mature guys lehx. I am glad NS makes u a mature guy. But how am I going to understand the grown up you, when u never let me know what u are thinking?

I know at times your little actions i can understand, dats becoz dat was what u did since we are together.

I am trying to find the passion as well. Maybe 3 years down the road, things have gone stale for us. We have to be happy and contented with things now, and improve, because the future path will be harder, with we decides to walk on together.

Hurt was wat i have when you spoke to me a couple of nights ago. I wonder if we should continue, or should we be just friends? You said you cannot live without me, isit because you have gotten used to me, or our love can be better den what we have now?

Is it me, or is it you? Our is it our destiny are coming to an end soon?

I dont know..........

2008-11-09T13:34:00.003+08:00

I am soooo tired. Lucky bf is not in town. Happy bdae to Kris (yesterday)!

My workplace's cisco guard's bdae was also ytd! After work, supposed to go celebrate with them, but i m so tired, plus i got wedding dinner at night, so gt to say sorry to the girls.

The dinner was bad. :( My mum is still harping on how the wedding dinner was so bad. However, the food quality is very good.

He is coming back today, but i duno what time... nuaing at home, and going to go out with my dearest brother. Yeah, no bf to accompany, but got my handsome brother!

2008-11-07T23:32:00.003+08:00

I am happy today, because my bf called me today! Happy!

Hinted his mum about our trip le...

I misses him sia!

Heard from my boss dat i will be posted out. :( Sadded, but whatever the case, getting a job now is not easy. We shall see how we can do abt it.

2008-11-06T20:26:00.002+08:00

He left already! :( I miss him alot. I slept at 3am, and woke at 5.30am and went to his hse and give him a surprise! I did surprised, and I also surprised his bro, as I did not used the keys to enter, but his bro was just nice wearing shoes and leaving his house. He got a fright, dat a lady with long hair and all black appearing saying a "Hello" to him.

Alvin is happy dat i went, becoz the night before I smsed him about a little surprise for him. I left for work while he left for Kim's house whereby they went to catch the flight.

Work like a zombie today! :( Lucky i balanced!

Notti boy, dint tell his parents about the genting trip yet... I will try to do the job for him den...

2008-11-05T21:58:00.002+08:00

Mr Alvin Kok is leaving the country in less den 24 hours, to Thailand with his NS frenz. :( Haiz...Pray hard he come back safely, and enjoy himself.

I am glad dat our little trip went as planned, now we are waiting for his overseas leave approval.

I am very tired from work. Keep getting scolding from pple... idiot, i dun wan to say anything. I dun understand y there are such pple dat exists!

I m going to miss him!

2008-11-04T22:34:00.004+08:00

Finally! I am damn busy during working hours today, as apart from work, I had been calling the agency and all, den finally it is settled at $153 per pax. I know it is quite ex la, for 3 days 2 nights, but i feel quite cheap, comparing if i have to go to HK or sth. When I went to the tour fair, 3d2n to HK with air tickets, will cost us $700+ per pax.

And now, it is done! Casino! I may seemed like a mountain turtle, but at least, i m going into the casino 1 day after i turn 21st, while my dearest bf, havent even stepped into one though his bdae was long long long time agao! Lalala!

Should i, or should i not leave?

I miss him.

Was watching a magic show:

1) personal life safety
2) money related
3) human private rs

2008-11-03T21:26:00.002+08:00

Thank God! My off days are approved! Yeah! Happy girl! Now is just the booking of the hotel and coach, bf's oversea's leave, and off we go for our little short honeymoon of 2008!

I was reading a news of Nicholas Tse, he is still my idol sia! Quoting a line from xin.sg, of his comment of his wife's problem, 他说,“我认识她11年，我跪地求婚那天，就知道她是什么样的人，我们2个形象差不多，都敢做敢当，每个人都有过去，但我绝对信任她。”。 “我求婚后就要包容她的一切，包括好或不好。”

Sweet right?

I want to treat my family to crabs, for my 21st bday, becoz it is my parents' reward for bringing me to this world for the 21st year, where I become an adult...

I am so looking forward to this November!

2008-11-02T21:54:00.002+08:00

I feel so excited for Martin and Erin! Really congrats! Not easy to come by, and they are indeed blessed with good luck to be approved to be together. :) :) :)

Gor must gambatte! Go and ask for her hand from her parents!

Mummy was saying, daddy told her " My parents is now your parents" when they got married. She told me not to take a guy's words too seriously. Yes, you may be married into his family, but he was to bear in mind that he has taken the hands of the daughter. Therefore, apart from the lady being filial to the guy's parents, the guy got to do his part to be filial to the lady's parents.

When a guy's family members got problem, it is right to expect the lady to be around to help, or to be present, as she is the daughter- in-law of the family. However, it should also be the same case if the lady's family member is in problem. Because we are in a society of equalness.

Come to think of it, Vin always asked me to go to his family's outings or dinner, giving me all sorts of MUST-GO reasons, and 90% of the time, i tried to be around, though i m just a GF of his, not a wife. Comparing to his bro's gf, i think i have been doing more den her.

I hope Vin will see this. I hope if the days come when my parents or my family's outings and dinner, you will be able to come and attend as well, and not to give me excuses or 'reasons' of not coming, like what my daddy has been doing.

Since we had been tgt, I have been having meals with his family at least 3 times a month, went genting with the family, cny visits every year, special birthday celebrations of his relatives, appearing at his hse at least once a week, going to his dad's factory during school holidays, visit his relatives when they are admitted to hospitals ... etc... I think, i have done more than a girlfriend has done, or probably, like what a wife should have done, just dat i dont cook.

He is going to thailand this Thursday! Sad! I am going for recee for my bdae bbq alone this weekend. No choice!

2008-11-01T23:36:00.002+08:00

Exciting! Finally, gor proposed to his gf! Yeah! So happy for them. Now i hope that her parents will give them their blessings, and be supportive of this marriage. No matter what happens in future, the future is determined by the decision of the both of them, so, Martin and Erin should be able to overcome these together.

Had crabs today! Yummy! I had cravings for them recently, and finally i got to eat it. Nice nice!

I dont know if my branch will still be the same. I am getting sick of the job and work. Duno y, not motivated at all.

Ytd, wh, ken, amy, clara, alvin and me, went to Zouk, planning to go in the halloween party. I m not dressed up though, because this is a last minute decision. However, we dint get to enter, despite having waited in the queue for 3 hrs, omg! My back was aching badly from the standings. Haiz... And so, no choice.

I saw xinzi there. I knows she club, but we never get to meet each other in any club. Though she is in the queue, and is in front of me, she gave up entering too.

It was my bf's virgin trip to clubbing. But he failed to enter. Nvm, i taught him a little bit here and there, and he is fansinated by the pretty ladies there. Idiot! Nvm, i was telling him about the handsome guys in Phuture too. Lol, either way!

Though i feel old going clubbing, but i still loves it! Hai, how ironic.

Happy happy today, becoz alvin n i have some communication. He said I am an ideal gf, but not yet an ideal wife. Whatever, i will just be a good gf for now!

2008-10-29T23:09:00.002+08:00

I am elated! Alvin has been uber nice to me these two days, plus he will be out tml night, as he is off on friday! And this means, more time and chances for me to see him, before he goes to thailand with his friends. Though i was a bad gf to disturb his slp last night, instead of staying in camp to rest more, he booked out today to see me. :)

I cant wait for 22nd nov to come soon, so that i can see my many many friends i have known in my 21 years... Yippee!

Please please please, grant me my off days from 26 to 29 nov please!

2008-10-27T21:52:00.003+08:00

Everyone is asking what i want for my 21st birthday...

I want more moolahs... lol! I need more savings lah... I want my $10k savings, hopefully i strike 4D soon... coz i m very very far away from this dream...

I want mummy to sponsor me a new laptop can?

I want bf to go overseas with me?

I want my boss to grant me the off days i want next mth?

I want more money money money to be saved up!

2008-10-27T20:07:00.002+08:00

For my past 3 days, i have been a sticky girlfriend... Sat after work, i went shopping at bugis alone, den meet him for a little while.

Sunday, we slacked at his house, den we went to Vivo City to meet his NS friends, had buffet dinner at Carnivore, $46/pax. As the name suggests, mostly is meat, but they are delicious.

Today, we went to honda showroom to look at cars, den slack at his place, before i go shopping at NTUC to buy some ingredients for the food i want to make tml...

Miss him!

2008-10-25T23:33:00.001+08:00

in another 30 mins, it will be our 3 yr and 3 months...

I want a house, which i can call home. I really dislike staying in my house now. No place of my own. No table of mine, the only thing i have is a bed which i can call mine.

Luckily, I have a bf of mine!

2008-10-24T23:06:00.002+08:00

I just came back from the company's service night at expo. Fun, but i m not dressed to the theme. It is always so thrilling, to see my batch mates! Took cab home home with my manager, just got to know she passed her driving on 25th sept, and she has been practicing woah!

Work tml, den a shopping spree after dat!

2008-10-23T21:30:00.002+08:00

http://www.bento.com/tf-recp.html

I am so happy to hear darling's comment that my packed lunch photo looked nice. Hee! He asked why i dint cooked my fried rice for him! Shall see again. If u r a good boy, i will pei you.

Tml company's event again! Haiz.. Have to go! Sat bf not free to accompany me, i think i m going for a little shopping trip!

Mummy is saying to go oversea in dec, duno if i will get to go or not, coz must see if i can apply my AL or not.

BF is going thailand with his friends in nov, just a few days before my bday... I want to go with him, but he says his frenz are not going to bring gf, so bring me is very inconvenient... Hai, but i duno if he will be able to give me a memorable bday, coz he got duty on 25th, by the time u reached home on 26th, he will be dead beat and wun have energy to pei me :( sad sad....

This sunday is our special day, ytd he suggested to go sentosa with his frenz, like, its our day lehx!

Silly boy! But, i still loves him.

2008-10-22T22:38:00.002+08:00

I am so happy i see him today! The short 1 hour, is sufficient to make my pain of stress to be away for a little while, makes me more relax and happier!

My work is sooooooooo superrrrrrr stresssssssful! I am in a dilemna on whether i should leave, the benefits are soooo gd, but the work is very stressful! :(

Crossing my fingers! I dun wan him to have guard duty on the 25th nov!

2008-10-21T21:00:00.002+08:00

Happy 21st Birthday to my darling Elaine. Today is 21st Oct 2008, her 21st birthday, and her chinese name is ee ling (10 aka Oct). So qiao! Ger, did ur mum planned for it?

I m getting more pimples, from my stress... I hope to be more adapted to my work soon. If i stay on, i might get my promotion to BO, as my branch's bo is now preggie le. But, its sooo stressful, but its fun la...

I want more savings... hai, so i gt to work harder.

My bf is glad dat i finally wake up and decided to save le. I work for 1 yr liao, and no savings lehx! Stupid me!

Mummy cooked fried rice for me to bring to work, yummy!

2008-10-20T22:46:00.002+08:00

My feet and toes are swollen... :( I am unhappy... I miss alvin!

I made my own lunch, and brought to work today. Colleagues are shocked to see me bring, some commented dat it looks nice. I hope to practice hard, and make food for him one day.

Work faced some problems. :(

http://video.about.com/japanesefood/Prepare-Perfect-Sushi-Rice.htm

I am trying to learn more about japanese food, since he loves them. :)

2008-10-19T00:58:00.002+08:00

Happy 21st Birthday to my sweetie Elaine. Though the actual day will be on 21st Oct, but we had a mini celebration in the chalet she booked on the 18th Oct. The girls turned up of coz, Alvin and Xavier went too.

Baby and I had some quarrels. I was so moody and unhappy, becoz i want to communicate with him, but i duno how to tell him so as not to worsen our rs. My gfs are worried for me, so I told dem about my problems, esp to michelle and xavier.

The party ended like 10.30pm, xavier, michelle, me and alvin took bus 89 home. I tried explaining things to him, but he feels i m moody, dats what caused our quarrels. Well, in a rs, communication is very important, i really hoped he can understand.

Nevertheless, I am very glad to have him around at Elaine's party. We got for her (the girls bought de), Kuromi things and 6 special condoms for her. Damn kinky la... Praying hard and hopefully they do not give me funny, naughty or kinky things for my bdae prezzie....

I hope baby can learn to reflect on our quarrels. Sometimes i do not understand ur thinking, which might caused the misccomunication, but at least I am trying...

2008-10-16T20:05:00.002+08:00

Ok my diet plan works, I lost like 2kg in a week... Hopefully by my birthday I will obtain my 42kg...

So tired. He has yet to call me, nor reply my smses. I guess he must be feeling terrible, over the lost of his items, and worry for his punishment. Crossing my fingers and praying hard, I want him to be celebrating my 21st birthday with me. Hopefully everything will be fine.

So stressful! My batch match is down on MC for 2 days. Everyone is so tired, i think.

I hope he calls me soon.

Trouble

2008-10-15T23:16:00.002+08:00

I hope... I pray... He will be fine. Things happened unexpectedly. Hopefully he will passed it peacefully, even if it means I will get more cramps, i dont mind if he is alright.

Was at his house just now. He ignored me, due to a very small and stupid quarrel we had, making me looks like an extra/ idiot in the house, like a pest. I cried, but he dont know. Because he feels I am in the wrong. No hugs nor kisses, though I made a trip down to meet him, especially important trip to me, when i know he will not be coming out till Sunday morning, for his little mistake he made, machiam like punishing me lidat.

No apology till now. When we are about to leave the house, then he realised he lost 2 super impt things. I turned the house over with his mum, though I was having super bad backache and my legs are breakings (due to work). We still cant find it, so we had to go to the Police to make a report. :(

* He ignored me even when I was helping him to search for the items.

Now, I just hope he will be fine. He dint say the 3 words today also.

Sad! Hope everything will be fine for him, and tomorrow to be a better day.

2008-10-12T22:38:00.002+08:00

Chicken Culet

Beef Curry

Am I a sensitive girlfriend?

I felt so insecure, when he told me he cant meet me ytd, coz his girl-friend wans him to pei her to meet her guy-friend, coz she is shy. I was disappointed, as my work ends at 2pm, i told him i will be heading to bugis to settle my Uni stuffs, and I will meet him after dat. When he told me he going to have dinner with them, my heart sink.

On friday, he had half day leave, but, we cant spend much time tgt, as he was going for his primary school friend bdae party.

Ever since i changed my job, every sat, i was either working half day or off. BUT, we never get the chance to spend our full day together. I dont request everyweek, but sometimes, we have so little time together.

When I was with SAFYC, he complaint that i need to work in the weekends, not spending enough time with him. Now that I have more time, he seemed to be very busy. :(

2008-10-10T20:38:00.002+08:00

I am getting happier! I am happy because.... I got to see my ladies in wednesday, thursday and friday when i went to training centre! And we played table tennis and kbox at rec club, ith the whole class, fun times!

After work today, i went to meet my bf. Spoke to him about me being clueless of my 21st birthday. Baby gave me a suggestion, to have a bbq at East Coast Park, and so, i made up my mind to do exactly. I do not wish to have a birthday party, wanting people to come and celebrate for me. I just want a simple affair, for my friends and relatives, colleagues and ex colleagues to be around, enjoy themselves through a simple bbq session.

2008-10-06T18:41:00.003+08:00

I m addicted to bentos! Today morning, mummy cooked some meat for me, and i packed it nicely into my lunch box with some salad.

Like a school girl, but this is not only about being able to dig in when my tummy starts growling, and it is msg free!

BF is asking me to make one for him too, well, let me experiment a few dishes before I cook a good meal for you. I am not a gd cook, but i will try my best.

MC for two days, as my back is killing me, even when i sit down. OMG, doctor advised me to take 2 days, though i told her i only need 1 day. Whatever!

I had bread plus 2 meat, green veggies and some other veggies for lunch today! Yummylicious.

Great Bentos Links:

http://www.airandangels.com/bentobox/
http://lunchinabox.net/2007/06/19/disposable-bento-for-airplane/
http://www.cookingcute.com/recipes.htm (receipes for cute bentos food)
http://onabentofrenzy.blogspot.com/

I need to know, how do I make the food fresh and delicious despite being out from the cooker or refrigerator? Anyone knows?

2008-10-05T21:59:00.003+08:00

I am aware my blog is having my cobwebs soon. I have been very busy, with work, parties, and with my sweet bf.

BF had his block leave these few days, but my work kept me so occupied, so I can only pei him after work. Sorry boy, neglect u le.

3rd Oct was the bank's dnd. Surprised to see Jean and Shandy there, so it means, we are colleagues again! The two sweety are cashiers back then, and now bank officers.

Kbox with baby today at amk, fun! Had pepper lunch for dinner.

2008-09-27T19:23:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to Dionne! We went to her house to celebrate her 21st this afternoon. Met a couple of friends whom we had not met for like 4 years? Its good to see all of us all over again. :)

Dionne is so thrilled to see the Cloud figurine we got for her as the present, limited edition, costing almost $380. Its worth it, if she likes it.

I should really exercise more, since it is already almost oct, one more month to my birthday!

2008-09-26T23:53:00.001+08:00

Happy 3 years and 2 mths baby! Meet him after work and had dinner at ichiban sushi. Both of us are on saving mode, so it has been some time since we last dine there. Thanks for the treat!

Sept Batch

2008-09-25T22:28:00.002+08:00

Congratulations to all of us, the September Batch of 2008's PTBO! After 21 days of intensive trainings, and 14 tests and examinations, today is the last day of our training!

Thanks to all, who made this tough and almost impossible training to succeed well!

Kim, Eileen and Xiaoting... My new found sweethearts in this training,including Mandy! We came a long way, pulling and pushing each other.

Looking forward to seeing these group of fun people on 8th, 9th and 10th October!

2008-09-22T20:42:00.002+08:00

Dilemna! Gosh, what shall I do? I cant decide, Ponggol or Compass Point? One is with great colleagues, the other is near my house. One need to work weekends, the other sooner or later. Which one should i choose?

Hai, i m really missing the times dat i can disturb clara and jamie, telling den my worries and unhappiness. Everything in SAFYC, except for the job scope of tiredness, i miss them so much. :(

Well, hopefully i can move on further. Today i had a new discovery, my cousin works in the bank as well! I dint know until i met her in the building today.

I need to destress! I need a listening ear to blurt my nonsense and deepest secrets to! Whom can i talk to? Argh, i m so tired. :(

2008-09-20T00:39:00.002+08:00

Ok, I got lots to update today, but....

Firstly, Happy 21st Birthday to Royston (16th September) and Adelaide (19th September)...

I have been nelgecting my girlfriends and buddies lately, becoz of my new start, work and training. Very tired and stressful. Finally, 2 weeks have passed smoothly, i hoped.

I am glad to have met Xiao Ting, Li Kim and Mandy in this training batch, of course the batch includes guys Belfred, Jie Yong, Adrian, Eric, Weihong, other girls are Jasmine, Michelle, Jessica, Sok Kuan, and one more girl I cant remember her name.

Xiao Ting, Li Kim and Mandy has been great girlfriends, lunch and exams are fun with them. :) We shared secrets. Though the feel of the colleagues are new, at least satisfaction n recognition in work is the key!

I hope I will try to keep there for at least 2 months or longer. :) Trying to.

2008-09-13T22:35:00.002+08:00

RMIT ranking is now 379.... NTU ranking now 474, NUS is 111, Monash Uni now 104, University of Manchester is now at 318...

Argh, so how, which one to choose?

Anyway, on the 11th Sept 2008, I finally passed my driving test at the 3 rd attempt. :) Woohoo!

2008-09-08T22:41:00.001+08:00

I m so shagged, from the training. Argh, starting to regret le. But, for the sake of my future, i must hold on! :(

2008-09-07T21:11:00.002+08:00

Argh, I spent like $228 in two days, on Mascara base, mascara, eyelash curler, eyebrow liner, eyeliner, foundation, black heels....

Hai, what to do? I have to put on makeup everyday for work. Tml i am going for my facial, my face is so dry. :( meaning, another $190 will be gone tml.

I have been so happy these few days, coz my dearest bf is with me, every minute. Muackies.

I saw a bald person two days ago on the bus, with a handsome guy. The person is actually a lady, who is down with some illness. I admire the love between them, so when i reached bf hse, i told him about this, and sweety said that he will never leave me also, if i am sick.

He has always take good care of me. :) Loves.

2008-09-05T23:36:00.002+08:00

Today is my first day of work with the bank. Reach the office at 9am, briefing till 12noon, lunch till 2.30pm, went for shiseido grooming course till 5pm, and tata, I went home.

After which headed to bf's hse, waited for him for an hour at his house downstairs. :( Had dinner with his family.

The photos below are taken after the makeup class. My second time using eyeliner. First time doing eyebrow makeup. Like no diff la.

Disturbing my bf is my hobby. Look at his happy face!
My parent's room.....
How I wish I will have such long eyelashes everyday? These are my real lashes, not fake de.

Oh yes, this photo was taken by my BF, when i disturb him. Bleahx! :p

2008-09-04T22:38:00.001+08:00

by taking the first step, will have a chance to succeed

2008-09-04T19:52:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to my Brother, Jia Rui!

Went back to club at 10.30am, after collecting the cheque and letter, we said bye bye. Don, cy, me, jimmy, cy and jason headed to Tampines for lunch, dine at pasta mania.

After piercing my ear and Don went to singtel, we went to cash our cheque. My first time lehx. Well, my last cheque from the club.

After which, we head to find Jamie, chill and slack at Mac Donalds, talk and crap, till 6.30pm. Wow!

I shall missed all these fun ex-colleagues soon. Our age difference is not more than 10 years ok....

I m going to iron my clothes, NOW! Haiyo...

2008-09-02T21:47:00.002+08:00

Have you seen the channel 8 show? The baby Nicole is so cute!!!

2008-09-02T18:39:00.003+08:00

Just another simple slacking day. Bought a pair of black pumps, for my new work uniform.

It has been raining and raining all day. I am moving here and there at home, so that my butt will not grow big before I start work.

My ex colleague CY is now in phuket with his gf... hopefully things are fine with him over there, as the situation is really in chaos. Elizabeth asked me how he was doing, well, i have no idea. Great colleagues like these care for each other. :)

I miss him la. :( The silly bf forget to call me last night. Haiyo...

2008-09-01T20:22:00.000+08:00

Ping just told me, the new team is very quiet. hahaz... Missing us le mahx?

2008-09-01T09:33:00.002+08:00

For those who know who my bf is, yet have no link with him in friendster, below is what Alvin states in his Friendster profile:

About Me:

Name: Alvin Kok Yin Shao
D.O.B.: 23 Feb 1987
Nicks: ~ Vin ~ Al ~ Kok ~ Shortie ~ Ang Mo Squirrel ~ PangPang Elephant ~ kokysa
Best nicK!!!: -=PiGoToN9=- ~oinkZ! (This nick I gave him)
Bout me nehX! U wanna know me? Add me to MSN... =)
1) When u're sad, find me...
2) When u're happy, find me...
3) When u miss me, find me...
4) When u need a bf, find me...
5)When u're over stressed, find me...
6) But if u're infuriated by the bad service or being overcharged, dun find me...

Prices as set below for the above services ^.^:
1) $20.00 + all other expenses used to make u happy again...
2) $10.00nett
3) $0.50/min
4) This depends on who u are...

Range: FOC to Rejection of job offer...
If you're a guy, i may still consider... hehe! But if chio bu nehX... of course accept la! =P

5) Actaully I'm very stressed too... So i dun think u shud find me... haha!
But if u insist, $99.90nett(Promo price leh! U.P.$100.00nett)
6) Told u dun find me le rite? _

Who I Want to Meet:

All kinds...

Tall/Short,Fat/Thin,Hairy/Bald,Bastardy/Bitchy,Nice/Nasty, Cool/Nerd,Original/Pirated,Guy/Gal/Gay/Les,Airport/Busty(Hee), Big/Small,etc. Anywhere... Anytime... Anyplace... Everywhere... Everytime... Everyplace... O!!!Most IMPT.!!! I WANNA MEET LAME PPLE LIKE U!!! (you can stand reading this lame notice, aren't you lame?)

Funny mahx? He is a funny boy! Lol... When i m down, i will read these words, sure to make me laugh

2008-08-31T23:47:00.002+08:00

Wow, in every 1000 babies born in 1960 to 1990, there are an average of 400 babies by the name of Eileen. Gosh!

What is so nice about this common name?

EILEEN
Gender: Feminine
Usage: Irish, English
Pronounced: ie-LEEN, ay-LEEN [key]
Anglicized form of EIBHLÍN. It is also considered an Irish form of HELEN. It first became popular in the English-speaking world outside of Ireland near the end of the 19th century.

http://www.behindthename.com/name/eileen

So, I am looking at a new one, Vevina... It is 1 in a 1000. Cool!

Name: VEVINA
Gender: Female
Origin/Usage: Celtic/Gaelic, Hebrew, Irish
Meaning: Sweet lady

Both origin from Irish. nice nice....

2008-08-31T22:40:00.002+08:00

BF came my hse to fetch me at 6.30pm, to his house. Coz he sent his dad to airport.

After slping till 10pm, we set off to Bishan, bought my googles, second round of breakkie, bought a spag top and white top from Giodano...

We went to Pasir Ris, wanted to swim, but the heavy rain put us off. So, we caught Wall E at Cathay, before heading to Sengkang to meet his friend for the mooncake. After that, since the rain has finally stopped, we went to Hougang Swimming Complex for a short swimming exercise.

After which, went to his hse to fetch his mum to Hougang Mall for dinner. Yummlicious! Hahaz!

Fat loh.

2008-08-31T21:26:00.008+08:00

About SAF Yacht Club

I have been with this company since 14 May 07, and my last day of service to the club was 30 August 08. It has been really fun, though not a fantastic pay, but great colleagues. Then why do I leave?

1) Alot of pple wans me to leave my job, as I have been neglecting them
2) My seniors (Don and CY) are leaving, I dont think the new team can make it
3) My hand injury discourages me to carry heavy things
4) I need a higher pay job, coz the pay I am getting is way too low for me
5) What I want to learn, i have finished. So, it is time to move on and learn more things
6) If the club can employ people who has qualifications of O Level only for my position, I dont think there is a need for a diploma holder like me to do this job.

Diploma is nothing. But, we have the knowledge, so that you do not need to retrain us.

When I took my things, and say goodbye to everyone, I almost cried. My eyes are watery. Yes, I might be weak. But, the friendship and kindness that I have received here, are real.

When I reached home yesterday night, Jamie msged me. " Hi Eileen, sad to see you go but then again all the best to you keep in touch" So sweet of her. I shall missed her terribly, just like to Don and Cheeyang. They are really nice people, working has been fun and meaningful, just with them around, no matter how tired we may be, social events, corporate events, weddings....

I replied her " :) Not to worry You will see me around, though not everyday. I think in the whole club I miss you the most. Take care woah, we shall go shopping someday" And she is cute to reply " Ok that will be your promise to me!"

I remember, when I go around to bid farewell, rose and her hugged me. Both are like mummies to me in the club. :)

Rose's delicious lunch, Jamie's cute laughter "Oops, I forget to bring my specs/handphone today again", I looked forward to everyday when I go to work. Disturbing Chee Yang at work and chatting with him, running to Don to remind him things, going to marketing office to chat with Jason and Liyan, giving magazine to Noris to read, grid Jimmy or Sunny to help me in my event set up, going to Alice for the super nice Pulut Hitam dessert, calling Elizabeth to talk about work, hearing Ping shouting in her office to some people who disturbed her, going to Clara's room and start my conversation as "Clara Hon....", hearing Mr Sim coming from his room and say " Smoke smoke smoke, lets go", Tracey to start whining when the clock strikes 12 noon "Lunch time! Where are we eating today"....Huzaini's "Ji chi Bang" meaning chicken wing to him.... these are all part of my life for the past 15 months.

Uncle Stephen and Miss Jacklyn has been very nice to me. I am happy to hear Stephen saying that I am actually more sensible than his daughter, and he promised me if I want to have my vdae dinner with my bf next yr, he will reserve a table for me, FOC! Miss Jacklyn treated Don, CY and me for a lunch appointment for our farewell on 29th August, I had the carpetag steak, yummy! Don has Lamb, and I think he enjoys it. CY has a mixed of steak and baby chicken. Argh, it is also one of my habit to visit this nice couple almost everyday to talk about business or a small chat, and they are always treating me to food, ice cream and drinks (thats how I got fat).

The habit of changing, is really difficult. Putting down to move on, is like breaking up with a bf like dat, coz those are the people whom I have a special bond with them. :)

I hope that for those who left with me, all the best! And for those who stayed, hopefully their life there will be great and less stressful! :)

I present to you.... The Events Team of 2007/2008

Pretty Accountant Elizabeth and me

Me with the ultra happening people in Marketing Department

Banana Boat Ride for Staff Training

My 20th Birthday

Countdown Party

Chee Yang's Birthday

2008-08-30T21:50:00.002+08:00

Today is my last day of employment with the SAF Yacht Club. I gonna miss all the fun, of working with Jamie, Ping, Clara... I gonna miss the fun working times with Chee Yang and Don.

:(

My new life is just going to start soon.

Ytd went to marina square and saw leonard goh. Today during 7th mth prayer saw zerong in the club. So qiao.

2008-08-28T22:01:00.002+08:00

Last 2nd day... I m starting to miss everyone. :( Not a gd sign.

I hope I will be much braver, to walk down the path for my future challenges.

I leave for a better future, i hope.

I want to rely on myself, for my studies and my own assets. How i wish i can be stronger!

I m looking forward to my days with my bf.

2008-08-27T20:24:00.002+08:00

My bf just made me angry. He said he wanted to meet me, so i almost board the train from tanah merah to his place, he called and say he wans to watch tv, so dun wan to book out :(

Nvm, he has been a nice guy to take leave for my driving test and my 21st bday dates. And this sunday he promises me to go to sentosa. Yippee! Yes, i m such a little girl at times, but exclusively to my bf can?

If u cant stand what I m writing here, den too bad, this blog is mainly abt me n my bf.

Anyway, 2 more days, are all that i have with the club. I will missed my working colleagues, the old and new events team, the fun working envirnoment. But, i will not miss the tedious and no life kind of work.

Cheers! to Noris and Jason whose last day was ytd n today... Den it will be Don and Elizabeth, me, cheeyang and Jimmy! We will be better out there, and be good friends wherever we might be in our future. Keep in touch.

2008-08-26T10:53:00.002+08:00

Happy 3 years n 1 month dear. Muackies!

It was the SAF Yacht Club's dinner n dance ytd night at Swissotel Merchant Court. Not as fun as last yr, but thanks to my colleagues who commented on my dress. :) Took a couple of pictures only, shall upload them again. Our table was trance, and elizabeth n myself are the only ladies.

The dnd end at 10 plus 11pm, gary, cy, don, jason, elizabeth, jimmy and myself went to elephant to drink. My lychee martini obviously did something to me. Hai. We played truth n dare. I dread that game, all my secrets will be out. Ok, i guess some of them knew that what i have told them wasnt true last time le. But, who cares, we are all leaving, except gary.

All the sensored qns and jimmy's sai things, damn funny! Great laugh. The night ends at 3.15am where we headed home. :)

Going out now, will be pack to post the pictures.

2008-08-22T21:57:00.002+08:00

I am a happy lady today. Mr Bf come to my hse at 10 plus, after he went to office to give something. We packed like 11 bags of things to be disposed.

Went for lunch and dinner with him at hougang mall. Before going out to lunch, we had a big tiff. Mr BF says he put his ez link card on my table, and it was lost! Except for the tissues that I put there, I did not touch anything. :(

So, we left home unhappily, coz this is the second ez link he lost in a week. One at his hse, one in my hse. :( He gave me a black face. I was like, Hello, wats ur wallet for, if u dun put ur card inside? We had black faces for like 3 hours for lunch. Went home to slack for another 2 hours, watching tv.

Then, out to hougang mall for dinner at the food court. And, when I was buying a belt for my dnd dress, super cute n blur bf found that his ez link card in his psp pouch! WTH! I was hopping mad when i heard abt it. He was saying sorry to me :(

Second time he says sorry after scolding me in a week. 4 days ago, i bought food for him, knowing that he is hungry while waiting for me. When I called him to tell him i leaving my company to his place n bought food for me, he scolded me for buying, coz he wants to eat waraku. :( I was nice to buy food for him neh. Felt so sad n hurt. After dat, he says his piece of sorry, after i bring to his hse, heat up the food for him, n bring right to his face to feed him.

Tell him, he is a lucky man if u think he is! Lol!

2008-08-21T22:55:00.002+08:00

It was 20082008 yesterday, yet, we do not have wedding. How funny! Whatever, better dat way, since we are alrd super busy.

Tml bf is coming my hse.... To help me tidy my hse. Lala, my part time maid.

2008-08-19T23:41:00.001+08:00

Bf n i dine at Pasta De Waraku again, today for dinner. Yummylicious! Spent like $120 in dat store for 2 meals, for the two of us. Guess my bf is attracted to it.

Hmmz, Mr Bf gt a friend recently, whom i duno how, yet they communicate quite often. Sounds fishy, shall sound him out some day. :( dun u disappoint me.

2008-08-18T22:10:00.002+08:00

Before I got that call from him...

I was happy today! I went to bf's hse via cab, den we went to amk hub to do corn. Was told they cant do for me yet. got to wait for another week. :( So, we went for our breakkie at mac.

To his hse again, we slacked, den went to novena for Pasta. Yummy! And watched Money 2 at amk hub, eating popcorns.

We had dinner at food court.

I love him. Thanks for this wonderful day.

Sorry to make u miss ur medical. We forgot abt it. Sorry sorry. Loves u!

2008-08-17T23:10:00.004+08:00

Wo Ai Ni! He makes me a happy girl, a very pleasant and great surprise...

I am off tml, as I will be going for my corn removal. So, I told bf to accompany me tml.

We catch " Meet Dave" after my work at J8. Alright only. Had dinner at delifrance. Thereafer, i took bus 88 home, while he stayed as he is catching another movie with his parents.

Here is the surprise... He accompanied me to the bus stop, and asked me to look in his eyes. He told me, tml's plan, is to settle my corn and his bank things, den we go for is either of his 3 plans.

1) Sentosa to sun tan
2) Sentosa to build sand castles
3) Clubbing

Y am i so happy?

1) Bf nvr likes to sun tan, and this is the first time he suggested it. Whenever i say i want to go, he will disagree
2) Sand castles, sth i nvr do b4, neither did he. It is so romantic. Lala, loving it
3) the silly boy nvr go clubbing before. I m serious. So i told him, tml is monday, clubs dun open de lehx. Lol

I almost cired of happines. Who says girls are hard to please?

Love his romantic ideas. But, i got to do my corn, duno can walk or not. :(

2008-08-15T21:26:00.002+08:00

I was so touched, about his words ytd, before I left his place. I asked him, darling, if one day I met someone who is better den u, will u let me go?

He says, if the person is better den him, loves me more den he do, treats me better, he will give me up. He says, love a person is not abt owning him, but to make her feel happy.

Thank u, I love u.

But i wun leave him, no matter what.

I am proud of him! He ran 16km in 1 hr 15 mins. :) Great job

2008-08-14T21:19:00.001+08:00

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2008-08-14T20:06:00.003+08:00

Haiya... cant see my dear tml. :( gt 7th mth prayer at club. Nvm, will see him soon :) Monday, he is MINE!!! He has been coming out this week, and next week.

I love facial n spas. My face is not oily today! Signed up for their package, 5 time $290, usual 1 session at $80. The package provides me 2 times of eyebrow trimming.

Now is 8.10pm. Shall go on my new buddy, Mr Trendmill, for some walking/jogging/running at 8.30pm. hopefully can complete 3km today.

I love to exercise, except for the fact that it makes my legs fatter :( or maybe more muscular.

Which laptop shall I get? Vaio? Fujitsu? Mac?

2008-08-14T18:29:00.002+08:00

Went for an interview this morning at Kallang, then meet bf for lunch at amk hub subway. Slack with him! Simple life like this makes me happy already!

Anyway, wat makes me happier is that after I let him hear shuo yi qian bian wo ai ni the song, and I sang a bit, he says my voice is very nice for singing for the first time! Yeah! Everytime i compliment him for singing so well, this is the first time he says i sing well. Lala, Eileen is happy today!

I am proud to say, till the time I leave the club, I am still the youngest perm staff in the club :) Hee!

I moved on for the better. Hopefully i get better luck out there.

2008-08-12T17:31:00.001+08:00

I guess... its time for me to sign up for fitness first paragon le... i m getting more fats... Y paragon? Not sure yet, muz see here my branch is going to be at. :(

2008-08-11T23:15:00.000+08:00

http://japanvogue.blogspot.com

I shall aim for the LV bag... woohoo!

2008-08-10T22:08:00.002+08:00

8th of August, I had a difficult day, a wedding, my last one. Quite alright though. first day of the Olympic in China.

9th August, happy bdae to Singapore! Off today, went to bright hill to pray, den kbox with sis's frenz at dynasty, den caught Journey to the centre of the earth. Oh yes, please watch this show, if u love thrill n adventure. Bought a blazer n pants from g2000, at $78, original price at $238. Woohoo! Got some gd stuffs from Daiso too!

10th August, fishing competition. Spent my day at SCH in the morning, except when Chee Yang n I went back to CCH to get sth. Went to bf hse after dat to catch a nap, before meeting Michelle to Michelle Lim's bdae.

We left at 9pm, had some great talk. Its always good, to have a fren like michelle, who understands me as well as i understand her. :) Cheers girl!

2008-08-07T21:23:00.001+08:00

I hope... I hope my grandma's illness will not fall on me :( 50% the chance of this illness is hereditary. I dun wan to have mental illness...

2008-08-07T20:53:00.002+08:00

Woots! I finally step foot into Zouk! Yeah, i m a country pumpkin. I haven club since 4 years ago. :(

I dun like the smoky environment in the past, and i treasure my beauty slp, plus my ex bf do not like me to club.

Nevertheless, I had a great time there, we enter from phuture first. Went there with Lthena, Elizabeth, Don, Liyan, Jakob, Ping, Clara.... 2 guys, 6 girls!!!

Lthena drank for Ping, while Jakob drank for Elizabeth, for the game between Elizabeth n Ping. Poor Lthena, she drank so much, that she starts to get tipsy n drunk. Don's actions are so obvious. Wee Wee! They hold hands, hug... wow!

Elizabeth was a bit drunk also, from her slur words... I managed to make out what she was saying.

I dint get drunk, though I drink 4 glasses, was tipsy.

No energy to dance, when we hit the dance floor. Was in hibernating mood alrd.

Reach home at 3plus head for bed after removing makeup at 4pm.

Sorry darling, make u worry. :)

26 more days to graduation

2008-08-04T20:32:00.003+08:00

I like Ah Mei's Yuan Lai Ni Shen Me Duo Bu Yao... And qing ai de, ni zhen mei bu zai shen bian... Nice songs..

The companys DnD is coming. Duno what to wear. CY was right, those we are leaving, should have our very own theme, coz we have the courage to leave, to go into a world of our own.

It is not easy to come together, fate is a main factor. And because of various reasons, we left. However, the friendster and bond that we shared, will not break up, even after we completed our 1 month's of notice.

CY, Don, Noris, Jimmy, Jason, Eileen, Elizabeth... And not forgetting Jakob and Lthena... Times together has been fantastic! We will do better, when we are out there.

Hopefully one day, we might be back to the club, to eat, and to stay in the resort rooms?

Saying good bye is hard, it needs alot of courage and determination. I am glad to say, I did it!

26 more days to, good bye officially!

2008-08-03T19:01:00.002+08:00

Though time spent with you is always so short, but these are the days that i keep smiling. Thanks!

I simply loves the neoprint we took today. I declare first, i did not wear contact lens, just took off my glasses only. Dun assume that I used that alluring eyes thing.

Please refer to the pictures below.

2008-08-03T18:52:00.002+08:00

2008-08-02T23:33:00.003+08:00

Elizabeth n Don resigned on 30th july, me, cy and noris resigned on 31st july.

Y the sudden resign? Well, I got another job on 30th july, the thrill of getting accepted immediately, damn shiok!

On 30th july, I got my ipod nano as well. Pretty!

31st july, Jakob last day. Like what he says, Liyan, the intern, is like a sister. As I m the youngest perm staff in the club, I m like a little princess.

I reborned my hair ytd $300... so ex. Hai... Alot pple says i look better n cuter, some says I look like a doll, short fringe.

Just went to chinatown for cy's grandfather's wake, with ping, clara, rose, jakob n jimmy.

Had a tired day at work today. :(

Off tml, going to see my handsome bf!

2008-07-28T21:07:00.002+08:00

Instead of losing my fats to 42kg, I gain some wonderful weight to 49kg... Can u believe it? I guess its water retention, coz i dun eat much, nor snacks often, seriously, Lthena says she dint see me take any snacks even when she offered me at work. Haix... :(

I m tired. Thanks to the company for giving us the chance to try banana boat and jetski rides. Happy, good experience

2008-07-27T18:29:00.002+08:00

Thank you Alvin, for the 2 days of fun and closeness dat we shared together.

Although our plans are corked up, and he was super tired, but he accompanied me to Sentosa Cafe Del Mar, and we have some great dinner at this great place. We met Primers pple at Vivo City, Forbes birthday. Bob Tan changed alot.

I introduced bf to a potato chips from candy empire, and it has since became his fave.

Slpt over, and we woke our asses up at 9am. Had breakfast at Mac, and we saw Chen Pei. Caught hellboy2 at amk hub. And we took some great neoprints! Happy! Lunch at Icihban sushi. Both days of dining costs us ard $50+ each.

Went to Bishan, to buy somethings. I go a new crystal case for my nintendo. Yippee! No more princess cover,but the new cover is pink!

Went back to his hse, and I bought my limited edition ipod nano from website. Hopefully it arrives soon.

In all, I had a great weekend with my bf.